beyond the edge

Open it up in my heart...
Open it up in my...

When alone, the night tends to be especially black
When alone, the heart tends to quietly fragment
The cold hands tremble, the hot tears fall
When alone, one wishes someone could appear

When alone, it's like falling into a ravine
When alone, it's like seeing through all of the world's lies
Time won't go faster, details won't stop replaying
When alone, one fears that someone might appear

Lalala
Filthily accept my love
It's contemptible to liberally allow yourself be hurt
Dragging the wounds on a flight across the horizons
Leaving just yourself to return

Lalala
Sigh a long sigh for my love
No one wishes to leave you alone
But if the world is boiled down to only the passing of seasons
Possessing too much will also become unbearable

Lalala
Filthily accept my love
It's contemptible to liberally allow yourself be hurt
Dragging the wounds on a flight across the horizons
Leaving just yourself to return

Lalala
Sigh a long sigh for my love
No one wishes to leave you alone
But if the world is boiled down to only a passing greeting
Possessing too much will also become unbearable

When alone, the night especially tends to turn black
When alone, the heart especially tends to crumble
When alone, even though all the emotions can't...can't...can't be escaped
When alone, you still must force yourself, to let things be



攤在自己的心上
攤在自己的……

獨處的時候 夜容易特別黑
獨處的時候 心容易悄悄破碎
冷冷的手發抖 熱熱的淚墜落
獨處的時候 好想有誰能出現

獨處的時候 像跌進了深淵
獨處的時候 像拆穿全世界的謊言
時間不肯快走 細節不停穿梭
獨處的時候 好怕有誰會出現

啦啦啦
髒髒地收我的愛
讓自己慷慨地痛太不堪
拖著傷口飛越了桑田滄海
剩自己慢慢地還

啦啦啦
長長地嘆我的愛
沒有人願意丟下你不管
若世界說穿了只剩下春去秋來
擁有再多也會太難耐

啦啦啦
髒髒地收我的愛
讓自己慷慨地痛太不堪
拖著傷口飛越了桑田滄海
剩自己慢慢地還

啦啦啦
長長地嘆我的愛
沒有人願意丟下你不管
若世界說穿了只剩下噓寒問暖
擁有再多也會太難耐

獨處的時候 夜特別容易黑
獨處的時候 心特別容易崩潰
獨處的時候 儘管所有情緒都逃……逃……逃不開
獨處的時候 還是要勉強自己 想得開





Just a little intro - Sodagreen is a Taiwanese band whose main singer is a prolific songwriter and has a very remarkable falsetto. It took me a little while to get used to his voice, but there's no argument his songs are amazing.

My favourite album is their latest (from 2 years ago?) "Autumn: Stories". I think I read somewhere that they're going by the Vivaldi route so expect a Winter album to come soon.

Maybe because I'm an Autumn child (though technically I was born in spring...but now I have my birthday in autumn), or maybe because their music and lyrics have matured over the years. The songs in this album are appropriately filled with a sense of longing, melancholy, sadness and regret...like watching the sun dipping unstoppably below the horizon, like taking a walk through fallen leaves as the sound of wildlife retreats, like an old man (or woman) confronted by the reality of his age.

"When Alone" is not my absolute favourite song, but I think there's something universal about these lyrics.

We're living in a world that is more and more interconnected, but only electronically. We see more and more strangers, and more and more of our relationships are built through a screen. Even though we're constantly with people online, many of us are also frequently alone.

And I think, when most of us are alone, we all have these doubts, these fears, these thoughts that seems to take the world apart and strip it of warmth and truth and all good things, and I think it will speak to everyone who's thought of all these things and then forced themselves to carry on.

Recently went K with a friend and since we had 3 hours between 2 people, practically booked every Japanese and Chinese song I've vaguely heard of, simply because I don't actually know that many XDD

And so I came upon 花太香 and fell in love with it all over again. Apart from the fact that Richie Ren's 楚留香 was amongst the worst I've seen, the song encapsulated the very spirit of 古龍 *__*

( Hua tai xiang lyrics+translation )

You know...years later, with the experience of years behind me, I have a feeling that "flowers" don't actually refer to flowers at all >_>; At least not all the references refer to real flowers >_>;;;

Firstly, ophthalmology is awesome. Not because that it is awesome or that its 9-5 office hour days are awesome and its $200/hr private consultations are awesome, but that the teaching is awesome. Although the other reasons are obviously good considerations for career path XD I hope I get to see a fluoroscein angiogram before I move on to ENT ♥

Secondly, I'm signing up to the hordes of fans who think that the PVs for "Love Yourself" and "D-motion" are ewwsome. I actually prefer "Love Yourself" (but I've only seen the previews for both so I might change my mind). I think my single discriminating factor is that Kame's hair doesn't look quite so fugly in "Love Yourself". I hail the Jin fan who called Jin "a fly with sunglasses on". NOW I CAN'T GET THE IMAGE OUT OF MY HEAD. I hope there's a legitimate reason for Kame not cutting his hair because he obviously thinks it's long since he ties it whenever he can =@ YOU BETTER GO CAMEO IN RYUUMADEN OR SOMETHING << you just want to see him with Fukuyama ==;

"D-motion" turned out less sugary pop than I thought, but I'm not into the whole electro-disco/Perfume type movement. But I liked the MS performance BECAUSE KAME TIED HIS HAIR UP (is it at all obvious how much my opinions of things hinge on his hair?) except it reminded me of the nosebleeding 1582 dance, especially the way he manages to sashay on the spot *facepalm* I wonder why so many people compare it to K-pop. I obviously don't listen to enough K-pop. In any case, KT has always equaled ass-shaking in my book even though it's really just Kame and Ueda. But Kame has been doing it before they debuted and I really don't think it has anything to do with K-pop =0=; The dance sequence reminded me more of some of Arashi's dances than anything else (apart from Kame's random bum shake LOL) At least they don't get off tune on "lives" any more << oi

Thirdly, Kame you still have no chemistry with girls *facepalm* Turning up the fighting between Sunako and Kyouhei was cute (and well overdue) though.


A: Hello
K: It's a bit cold but, is everyone doing gooooooooooooood
A: For a so-called "Mail Special", isn't it a bit ordinary?
K: Ordinary is the best

SUB: Baseball and soccer
Text: Kame-chan, Jin-kun, hello. A few days ago, about...about that!! I went to Johnny's Sports Day. As someone who has such bad luck with lotteries, I was very happy [TN: tickets are balloted]. The two of you, thanks for the hard work. I stood the whole time to watch, but I didn't feel tired at all~ Kame-chan was very active in baseball and Jin-kun in soccer. In fact I don't play either of them, I don't really understand so please tell me what the attractions of baseball and soccer are. Also, you must you must!! Hold another sports day next year. From kekkoukenoji

A: Yup
K: I want to do it next year too
A: It was fun I didn't play much baseball though so I wouldn't know
K: That's right It was fun
A: I've always played soccer, I just like it If you ask why, I don't know Well, it's the feeling Anyway it's just fun
K: Baseball, for each and every person there's a moment to shine Everyone being gathered together...nowadays I still play grass baseball but...after a match, everyone has a common conversation topic Like "That time you should've done this~", a moment in which anyone could be on common ground with each other, it's fun Playing as a team, becoming one, it's great

SUB: Valentine's
Text: Pleased to meet you. It's out of the blue, but what do you think about Valentine's? I think I am going to give three boys chocolates this year, but I think it's best to narrow it down to one person...I think, I'm a bit bothered. Enough of that (lol), I'd like to ask about memories the two of you have of Valentine's. You must have gotten a lot of chocolates~ Even though I can't use them as an example for what usually happens, but I'd definitely definitely like to know. Please tell me. From aryamakoryama

K: Valentine's is...for us...no, for me not something that I celebrate During high school it did happen, but since working in this job What exactly is Valentine's? I wonder
A: I don't remember much of it either
K: Such as someone to like...
A: Getting chocolate is good, not getting chocolate is also good Don't eat much sweets anyhow
K: Once you become an adult, occasions like Valentine's stop being an essential way of being a witness to your love You make your own special occasions ne Well, if you receive anything it's still something to be happy about
A: Yup See you next month


After extensive psychological profiling by me and my friend << uso desu, we have concluded that Kame is the creepy obsessive type who likes to celebrate random anniversaries like, "The first day I went karaoke with Fukuyama" and "The first day Kimura gave me a present" and "The first day I went to have ramen with Uchi" and "The first day Koki confessed to me".....(Jin: WHAT ABOUT ME?!) You? Who are you? XD

Kame really loves teams doesn't he ;__;

A friend asked me about this yesterday and I remembered that I hadn't done this for a while XDD

The Akakame mail is really short this time because Jin is busy with his movie and Kame with his new drama. I got excited when I saw the new drama heads-up in Myojo because Kame had short hair, until I realise he couldn't possibly have cut it in time and they're just re-using his pictures from last year's Shizuku days in the hopes that HE'LL CUT HIS HAIR ARRRH.

SUB: Hello
Text: Kame-chan, Jin-kun, hello!! I've been reading this corner since its first entry. From that young, growing to become this old...it's indescribable. Are there anything the two of you sort of want to do in this corner? Please tell us. From Yuu.

A: There isn't
K: As for me~ I want to do a corner of beautiful camera shots Mail is good, but camera would be good too

SUB: Good-looking...
Text: Pleased to meet you. My younger brother is turning 13, but he's not really good-looking. So as his older sister I want to give him a makeover. What should I do to turn him into a good-looking guy like the two of you? I know it's probably a difficult question but Kame-chan, Jin-kun, please teach me how!! From Rimi

A: Eh--...
K: I'm not
A: Yeah Good...looking I'm not
K: Well, it's because what girls think are good-looking is different from what guys see as cool
A: Gee, it's fine the way he is, your brother
K: Well then, Merry Christmas (To those who buy the magazine on its release date)
A: Have a happy new year (To those who buy it before 09 ends)
K: Greetings for the new year (To those who buy it in the beginning of the new year)

The title of this article is "Zhejiang 'temporary rape case' to be reopened" and I went...wtf?? Temporary rape? As opposed to permanent rape?

And when I read it, it was even more wtf...so I decided to share with you the wtfness of the Chinese legal system. (My legalese is terrible so I'm sorry if I got some of the legal terms wrong.)

Due to pressure from the community, the strongly criticised case of "rape of temporary nature" in Zhejiang Nanxun has experienced a change of fate. After reviewing the case, Zhejiang Province Huzhou Intermediate Court conceded there was an error with the original sentence, that it was too light, and will set a date to reopen the case.

According to "Chongqing Evening Newspaper", on 10 June this year, two police assistants in Nanxun [TN: they cover some police duties but are not officially part of the police force], Qiu and Cai, took two fresh high school graduates Chen and Shen out for dinner. During the meal, all four drank lots of alcohol. Chen, who had low tolerance for alcohol, was knocked out by the time dinner finished. After the dinner, Cai drove everyone to a hotel in his own car and booked a room. While in the room, the two men raped Chen while she was unconscious and unable to resist.

On 19 October, Nanxun court found "according to the facts of the crime, in light of both persons having committed 'a reckless offence of temporary nature', with no premeditation, and voluntarily turning themselves in afterwards, and being able to obtain the forgiveness of the victim; in view of these circumstances, the sentencing will be reduced", and sentenced both men to 3 years.

The sentence caused a huge wave of dissent online, with netizens demanding, "What sort of concept is 'rape of temporary nature'? Are rape crimes divided into 'official and unofficial' and of different durations? The two men took turns raping the victim while she was unconscious, why was this not gang rape? How did they 'obtain the forgiveness of the victim'? Did they 'seal her mouth with money'? If this sentence sets a precedent, then from now on are all 'reckless offences of temporary nature' going to have their 'sentencing reduced'?"

Netizens pointed out that to get a high school graduate drunk, and then to take her to a hotel and rape her, is clearly a premeditated crime, and not "of temporary nature" at all. People joked that if this becomes a trend, things like "murder of temporary nature", "bribery and corruption of temporary nature", "drink driving of temporary nature", "robbery of temporary nature" are going to appear...if all crimes use "of temporary nature" as an excuse to reduce the sentence, it's easy to see that an era of "of temporary nature" will soon be upon us.

In response to the criticism and denunciation from all corners of society, Zhejiang Province Huzhou Intermediate Court reviewed the case and conceded there was an error with the original judgement, that the sentence was too lenient, and will reopen the case some time in the future.

Original article in Chinese here.