the silence

Not sure I passed the exam but anyway. I think I totally skipped the top part of the Yerkes-Dodson Curve (I know wiki says "arousal" on the horizontal axis, but I've always learnt it as "stress") and went straight from "I can't be bothered yet" to "I can't be bothered cos I'm so screwed anyway".

They introduced a new format of questions in the exam, which is basically multiple choice but you have 12 choices and only one correct answer. Apparently it's to eliminate the chance of you guessing. I wasn't too happy with it. On the one hand I could put it down to my wobbly knowledge, but on the other it's still MCQ and MCQ has always been about elimination of unlikely choices. This is just...time-consuming and requires incredibly detailed and specific knowledge about a lot of things ==;;;

A few nights ago I had another creepy dream =D And jkylk made a cameo in it LOL

We and my mum were going home on an underground station, and for some reason jkylk was going to Hurstville with us (I think I asked in the dream but I can't remember what her answer was ==;) It looked a bit like Redfern but there was another track that curved out of and then joined up with the track closest to the platform. As we were walking down the escalators, we saw a lot of people who had just gotten off the train holding Easyway teas in their hands, and I remarked on it, and jkylk said there was also an Easyway in Bankstown - which I didn't know but which turned out to be true ||||||||||||Orz

I remember there were quite a number of people standing on the platform, but it was strangely stifled in that everyone was talking quietly. The train pulled in to the platform but went for a short way into the tunnel. No one seemed surprised and everyone kept waiting patiently. Then I noticed there was someone - I couldn't see the face at all but I remember thinking it looked like a teenage girl - someone dressed in dark colours and quite skinny, standing straight and unmoving on the tracks. She had her hands in her pockets and it was a surprisingly laid-back stance.

Then the train started reversing backwards toward the platform, and she didn't move and just stood there waiting. Then there was a thud and a short scream that seemed to echo. I just remember how stifling and muted everything was. No one screamed out for her to get off the tracks, and she was standing in full view of everyone. Almost immediately afterwards, a lot of people sat down where they stood, as though knowing that the trains would now be delayed. It was just such a...resigned and unfazed reaction. No one screamed out afterwards, even, the only sound apart from muted talking was her scream.

Then jkylk said she was going to go home on her line because our line will be delayed. As I walked a short way with her up towards the escalators, I saw a glimpse through the crowd of a body lying next to the tracks, dark liquid smeared over a mobile phone still clutched in her hand, and the Cityrail workers trying to take care of things.

I've never dreamt of people committing suicide in front of my eyes before ||||||Orz In fact, I think this is the first time someone's actually died in front of my eyes in my dream. *Shudders*